round and round in circles...

[deird_lj]

My attitude to the whole going-to-England thing tends to go in circles.

I’ll start off with
Relaxed Happiness
…in which I am generally content, and confident that I’m going to go, and it’ll all be fine, and I’ll have a great time.
This stage is fun while it lasts, but rapidly moves into
Doubt
…because, of course, there’s a big possibility that I won’t get to go. Especially if I can’t find a job in the next month or so.
Once this stage gets going, I end up in
Depression
…when I am completely and utterly convinced that I will be at least 70 before I get to see England.
This stage, happily, doesn’t generally last very long. It soon becomes
Determination
…to get there no matter what - even if it involves working in a bar, or even not working at all! I’ll sit on the streets and beg for money – as long as those streets are vaguely British!
Unfortunately, I’m not quite as carefree as all that. So this stage quickly turns into
Rationality
…because it would be incredibly dumb for me to travel halfway round the world without having a job beforehand.
So, instead of that, I move on a stage into
Organisation
…at which point I start frantically putting together job applications, and emails to potential employers, and so forth.
This stage could be really useful, but almost immediately turns into
Blind Panic
…about the entire situation. After all, if it works, then I will, two or three months from now, be on the other side of the world. Where I know almost no-one. And everything is strange, and scary, and different. AND I’M DOING THIS STUPID MOVING-ROUND-THE-WORLD THING PURELY SO THAT I CAN BE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD. WHICH IS INSANELY STUPID. I AM ENTIRELY MAD.
Thankfully, I eventually get over this stage, and go back to the Relaxed Happiness.


Right now, I’m stuck in the middle of Depression. I’ve spent the morning convinced that I’m not going to get a job – not ever – and it’s all entirely pointless.
But I think I’m going to see if I can skip a couple of stages, and go straight into the job-hunting bit. That’s much more productive, really.

*rushes off to email railway people*

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[stormwreath.livejournal.com]

And everything is strange, and scary, and different.

* We sometimes have this wet stuff falling out of the sky.

* You can go to the toilet without checking that no giant eight-legged monstrosities are lurking under the seat waiting to eat you.

* Paper money is actually made of paper, not plastic.

* We have Marmite instead of Vegemite. It's better.


Reassured, or even more scared now? :-)

[feralxheart.livejournal.com]

AND I’M DOING THIS STUPID MOVING-ROUND-THE-WORLD THING PURELY SO THAT I CAN BE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD. WHICH IS INSANELY STUPID. I AM ENTIRELY MAD.

This probably doesn't help, but I'm going to tell you a story anyway.

A friend of mine decided she wanted to go live in Japan. She doesn't speak Japanese, and couldn't figure out why the hell she thought it was such a good idea. But, she landed a job and went there to teach English to Japanese people anyway.

It was really scary, a lot of it sucked, she misses people all the time.. but now that her visa is up, she desperately does NOT want to leave Japan.

So..maybe if you have this idea that you want to go, and need to go, and that it will be the best thing ever..maybe you're right. And you should do everything you can to go, and nip the blind panic in the butt - cause if you think you'll love it, you probably will.

...plus on a totally selfish note, I wanna go to England, and it would be a hoot to run into you there.

[immer-am-lesen.livejournal.com]

You can go to the toilet without checking that no giant eight-legged monstrosities are lurking under the seat waiting to eat you.
You don't have spiders? At all? Not even daddy longlegs? I'm liking the sound of this....
Although, they do catch all the annoying little moths by the kitchen window at night, so not all bad...

Paper money is actually made of paper, not plastic.
Oh, I'm so glad we evolved past that...the number of times money was found as a little squished-up ball of mush in pockets after the wash...
That, and it got so grubby, and torn, and icky...
And, our plastic money is so pretty and colourful now! :-)

[immer-am-lesen.livejournal.com]

btw- I'll be very impressed with you if you do get to go. It's a level of bravery I'll never achieve :-)

[ikona-rakasha.livejournal.com]

i know how you feel, but reversed. will i stay herea nother year
do i want to live in japan or move onwards?

i go from sedate to irrational to depressed to angry then elated *hugs*

[shapinglight]

Wow! I didn't know you had plastic money in Australia until I read this thread.

[silveronthetree.livejournal.com]

Good luck with the job hunting. Don't worry too much, it may be a bit different but we are all very nice over here and shouldn't be too scary. .

[taiba.livejournal.com]

I have similar feelings about similar things, but less intense because my travel plans are a bit further away.