that getting the chip out would make killing Buffy easy
Except he's been over killing Buffy ever since he fell in love with her. The chip didn't create those feelings. And he could've killed her all throughout Season 6 ever since the first moment he could hit her. So... that really doesn't make sense to me. He didn't need to go on a soulquest to kill Buffy.
I agree about him being caught in between states. Can't be a monster, can't be a man. But his going on the soulquest wouldn't make him a monster again. He'd already changed himself past the point of being a monster through his actions for the past two years. The chip never stopped him from being a monster. Spike changed himself.
Yes, that's why I said 'thought'. I think he figured that if he was allowed to truly be a monster again, he could lose those feelings, it could just be vampire vs Slayer again. It wouldn't have worked, certainly.
I don't think Spike stopped being a monster, per se? The chip forced him to interact with certain humans on a level beyond fun and food, and he was able to connect to them in a way he usually wouldn't. I think the attempted rape was the first time he truly felt any guilt, and that's what really scared the hell out of him, pushed him over the edge in to needing to make a change, one way or another.
I wish we'd been able to see him continue struggle with that without the soul, really.
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Except he's been over killing Buffy ever since he fell in love with her. The chip didn't create those feelings. And he could've killed her all throughout Season 6 ever since the first moment he could hit her. So... that really doesn't make sense to me. He didn't need to go on a soulquest to kill Buffy.
I agree about him being caught in between states. Can't be a monster, can't be a man. But his going on the soulquest wouldn't make him a monster again. He'd already changed himself past the point of being a monster through his actions for the past two years. The chip never stopped him from being a monster. Spike changed himself.
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I don't think Spike stopped being a monster, per se? The chip forced him to interact with certain humans on a level beyond fun and food, and he was able to connect to them in a way he usually wouldn't. I think the attempted rape was the first time he truly felt any guilt, and that's what really scared the hell out of him, pushed him over the edge in to needing to make a change, one way or another.
I wish we'd been able to see him continue struggle with that without the soul, really.