*is exhausted and achey*

[deird_lj]

Sometimes, I really wish I lived somewhere that was less stiff-upper-lip-y, and more weep-and-wail-and-show-your-grief... because then, maybe, if I happened to be obviously crying and yet reassuring everyone that I'm fine, really I am, maybe, just maybe, they'd stop assuming that I'm lying.


It's just rather frustrating.
I mean, obviously, I can weep and wail and carry on with the best of them. I get teary over sad movies, happy movies, sentimental music, and sometimes just because I'm tired and frustrated.

However.
Sometimes, tears can be caused by other things. Physical pain, for instance. Or hayfever. Or just about anything.


Today, it was excessive exercise.


I have decided to get fit - and since my last six attempts to get fit failed dismally once I realised there was work involved, I've joined a group exercise class, in the hopes that that will motivate me.

So today I went along to the Body Step group, where a whole room of women step on and off those little exercise steps, very fast, while motivating music plays too loudly, and an incredibly fit instructor yells new steps at us from the front.

I was rather bad at it.
Hardly surprising, really, given that my normal daily fitness regime is mainly composed of sitting.

But I had fun. And it was worth doing, and not too complicated, and I'm probably going to go back.


Unfortunately...

*sighs*

Well, for one, I thought people were beginning to pack up, when they were really just shifting their steps around for the last five-minute section. So I started packing up, dutifully, and the instructor promptly thought I was leaving, and started encouraging me to stay, because it wouldn't be too hard, really it wouldn't.
So they already thought I'd tried to sneak out halfway through.

And then, because I was doing so much exercise, I started crying. Not from sadness, or stress, or anything except that my body decided that producing tears was an excellent idea.

So, there I am, at the end of the class, panting, and enthusiastically telling the instructor that I had a great time, and I'll definitely come back (and perhaps exaggerating my enthusiasm slightly to try to not look like someone who gave up halfway through and tried to leave early).

And I've got tears streaming down my face.

They were all just lovely, and reassured me that I wasn't that bad, and it'd be okay, and I'd been very brave just showing up at all, and really I'd be fine, and they'd all started off badly too...


I just... I really really wish that I'd be able to say "No, really, I'm fine, I'm just crying for no reason" and have people believe me!

Comments

[libco.livejournal.com]

*hands you tissue*
I hope you do go back.

[empresspatti.livejournal.com]

I do step a couple of times a week - I try to alternate it with the elliptical machine. It is very good deep tissue workout for butt, hips, thighs.

I feel like crying after class sometimes too - I'm 54 and it wears me out much more than when I was younger. Plus I get sweaty, rub my face and irritate my eyes. So I have been know to be watery at the end of class myself.

[padawanspider.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know what you mean. :/

[curiouswombat.livejournal.com]

Hmm - tell them your eye-balls are allergic to exercise...

[brutti-ma-buoni.livejournal.com]

Yep. It sucks when such things happen.

I'm especially prone to catastrophic hay fever weeping from one eye only, which makes me look both distraught and confused. No one believes I'm basically fine, either.

Go you with the actual exercise though. I hear it's worth doing. Sigh.

[lavastar.livejournal.com]

Omigod, that crying from one eye thing happens to me ALL THE TIME. It makes me so angry - cause I'm wiping away the tears from this one eye, and everyone assumes I'm sad, but I'm really not...

[lavastar.livejournal.com]

Ehhh. That sucks. *pets you*

[jl-in-the-lane.livejournal.com]

I miss BodyPump soooo much.
Best if you can make a friend in the class.